As with most people born in the same time frame as myself, the first time I started a blog was in high school. I detailed everything from my daily life and was ecstatic when I was invited to Livejournal – yes back then you needed an invite to Livejournal to make your own blog. No piece of my day was unimportant, especially those that involved my experiences with boys or my overly emotional reactions. Soon I moved on to Blogger, which I had thought was an upgrade of sorts, and educated myself on themes and code; ways that I could further showcase my unique identity on the internet. My group of friends and I had linked accounts where we could all communicate with each other, and built Nexopia and Myspace accounts to keep up on what was going on outside of school. Seems silly now really… I didn’t even know what Facebook was until my final year of high school and even then blogging was still a huge part of my life though it had evolved again.
By the time I was half way through high school I had almost ceased blogging all together. I had gotten in trouble for a cynical blog post I created as a sort of eulogy for my brother’s death – of course he had not died yet which made it all more troubling for my parents. Rest assured my brother is still very much alive and we get along quite swimmingly now and talk about my satirical post and which parts of it ended up being truth, though we didn’t know it at the time. Halfway through high school I had also discovered vlogging through Youtube on my channel ScrtSolstice. Most of the old posts are now removed or moved to VlogofZOdd, but it was yet another creative outlet for me to express myself.
Soon it was more than just blogging and vlogging, and my interests had shifted to creating further accounts for Social Media, creating an online presence which is now The Power of Mess: creative content in both the real and virtual worlds. Eventually this has now lead to the creation of this site, a web hub for all things creative. Though I do not mean for this to solely be a blog, it will undoubtedly have that presence as well – whether through reviews, showcase posts, tutorials, or just plain personal blogs. So you’ve been forewarned – this is the site you are looking for, you just may not have expected this much.
When I was in high school everything that I thought was normal and right in the world was considered wrong – and I believed that it was. Everything I said or did was seen in a negative light thanks to those around me who felt that they had the authority to decide what was right. I know now that they did not have the authority but only the conviction.
When I was in high school everything that I knew and loved was inconsistent and backwards – at best. Everything I thought was real and permanent began to disappear outside of the concrete walls and I soon found that it was alright. I know now that there is no one else I would rather be than myself – and I control the audacity to do so.
It took years of confidence building and understanding from those around me who formed a support circle, but I am here and I can now love The Power of Mess for what I wanted it to be: reality.
The Power of Mess is something that I started when I was in high school as a private place (yes private even though it was on the internet) where I could not be harmed by those who judged. A place where I could be myself and not worry about those who harassed me because I would never know them in real life. It was my branch out into the universe to be the unique and weird soul that I was and still am. Now the mess is so much more – it is everything I aspire to be, everything I want to inspire in others, and everything I want to leave behind when I expire.
This is The Power of Mess, and I am ScrtSolstice.